Saturday, April 5, 2014

Not My Will.............

Well this week has been a little interesting to say the least.  A week ago, I didn't think that I would be sitting here describing my diagnosis with Bell's Palsy, but that is what life handed me. On Wednesday night, I started feeling "off," but just couldn't put my finger on it.  At dinner, I noticed that my food didn't have any taste; however, I decided I really wasn't that hungry.  Then, later that night, at small group my face felt really tight (like having a facial mask drying on my face) for just a quick second or two. I didn't think much of it, and by the time I got home I was exhausted and went to bed by 10 p.m. 

On Thursday, I woke up extremely early around 4 a.m. because of a storm, and by 5 a.m. I couldn't sleep so I got up, did my morning bible study, and decided to knock out a few work writing projects.  I ended up working for about 3 hours, and around 8:30 a.m. I decided that I needed to get ready for a client meeting I had at 10 a.m.   I kept touching my face and feeling something was off, but never looked in the mirror.  (I guess it was too early for me to think something was off....Ha!!)

When I went upstairs, I looked in the mirror and that is when I just about lost it.  My face was completely "off."  I noticed I couldn't smile on my right side, my eye brows were at least an inch different in height, and my eye lid was droopy.  I took a deep breath, closed my eyes and whispered  "I trust you Jesus.  I trust you."

I fought back tears and decided that since I had worked all morning, that I could go ahead and shower before heading to the ER.  My mind felt fine, it was just my face that was off.  I didn't know if I had had a stroke or something else, but knew a trip to the ER was a must.  And, last time I made a hospital visit (you can read about this here) I ended up staying three days, so I was going to be prepared. HA!!

Luckily, Matt was home that morning and he drove me to the hospital.  We didn't talk much on our drive, and it seemed like every song that came on the radio talked about trusting the Lord and that no matter what storms you were going through, He was in control. 

One of the songs that played during our drive - "I Am" by Crowder. 
God, is into the details, isn't He? 

When we arrived to the ER, my experience ended up being much quicker this time around.  Within 30 minutes I had been triaged, examined, and diagnosed with Bell's Palsy.  I had only heard of the disease about a year or so ago, when my sister-in-law had two friends diagnosed with it, but had NO idea what it was or how it was going to effect me. 

Bell's palsy is a paralysis or weakness of the muscles on one side of your face. Damage to the facial nerve that controls muscles on one side of the face causes that side of your face to droop. The nerve damage may also affect your sense of taste and how you make tears and saliva. This condition comes on suddenly, often overnight, and usually gets better on its own within a few weeks.

When I left the hospital, I called my mom to let her know, and also texted a few friends to ask for advice.  We ran to the pharmacy to pick up meds, and then headed home where I proceeded to spend the next few hours reading, researching, watching videos, and connecting with people on Twitter who were experiencing this disease right now too, all to get my game plan ready on how I was going to deal with this. 

Then reality set in when I realized this wasn't going to be gone in a couple of days.  It was going to be a month to four (4) months before my face would look and feel "normal" again.  I had so many insecurities and doubts come up, that I knew I had to deal with them head on. 

I had just started a new job, how would they react to seeing me everyday? Would they question why they hired me, and ask me to leave?

What about going out with my friends, could I enjoy laughing in public when I knew my face would look awkward or off? 

What about my husband?  I have to sleep with my eye all taped up, would he get tired of looking at me being all wonky after a few days?  

Fear, stress, discouragement, worry - they all decided to show up Thursday afternoon.  I decided the best thing I could do was to take a nap and just rest.   As, I went to sleep, I closed my eyes and whispered again, "I trust you Jesus.  I trust you."

I woke up about an hour later feeling great.  Yes, my face was still frozen, but my attitude was uplifted and my fears were all gone.  I knew without a shadow of a doubt that the Lord would heal me in His time, and I knew that the only thing I could do was to embrace this journey. 

You see each day, I pray, "Lord, use me. Use my hands and feet to meet the needs of someone You want to bless today, use my mouth to encourage others that You want to lift up, use my skills and talents to bless my family, my friends and my work place, Use Me God. Use Me.  Not for My Glory, but for Your Glory Lord." 

And, when I realized that this was a way the Lord wanted to use me, I had an immediate peace.  This didn't happen to me to punish me or to hurt me.  No, the Lord allowed this to happen because He will use it for His Glory and to draw me closer to Him. 

A sweet friend of mine reminded me of Acts 5-7, were we are reminded of the GLORY God receives in suffering...the CHURCH grows, we grow and learn to exchange the spirit of heaviness for a garment of PRAISE!  

So,  I have a decision to make each day as I heal:

I have to decide that a positive attitude is much more attractive than a negative one. 
I have to decide that laughing at myself when I can't spit out my tooth paste or drink out of a straw without wearing what I am drinking is funnier than getting upset. 
I have to decide that taking the time to wear glasses and sleep with a patch over my eye, because I cannot blink out of my right eye, is better risking damaging my eye forever. So, I guess I need a pirate name! Ha!
I have to decide to encourage others is much better than talking about all my problems. 
I have to decided that I am really not in control at all, the Lord is, and through those decisions, I will recover and be a better person than I was a week ago, when I would have never imagined that I would be writing about my diagnosis with Bell's Palsy. 

Have a blessed weekend my friends, and remember, "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight."

Lots of Love,

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Wednesday, April 2, 2014

My April Wish List...........

I love April.  Its one of my FAVORITE months of the year! I love when the trees and flowers start blooming and getting outside to enjoy the amazing weather.  Its also a time I begin planning for Spring/Summer season, and I've been making a little list of things I've got my eye on this month to buy:

 I would love to finish decorating our master bath this month, and love these pics!  Also, still looking for a new shower curtain and window valance to finish off the room!!

 Loving these flats from Sam Edelman Brayden

 Also, have my eyes on a few flowers for our front and back porch, and even around our mailbox!

 I was introduced to the Keurig last month (yes, I never used one until I started my new job); however, now I am hooked!!  I am hopping my hubby gets me one in my Easter basket. :-)

I am planning to pick up this new book by Arianna Huffington, sounds insightful and intriguing.  

And, who could not pick up a great new Umbrella in April.  You know what they say, April Showers brings May Flowers. 

Here's to a fun April!! 

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Tuesday, April 1, 2014

Happy Happy Birthday to the Davis Boys!!

Today my sweet boys turn the big 13!!  I cannot believe how fast time has flown by, and life just wouldn't be the same without my "little old men."  They bring so much happiness to our home, and Matt and I love to spoil them rotten!! 

The Boys have been with me through college, my quarter life crisis, more than 7 moves, and finally settling down when Matt and I got married 7 years ago.  They are my little rocks, and I adore each day I get to be with them. 

Happy Birthday Boys!!  Love you so very much!!

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Saturday, March 29, 2014

Quiet Saturday Mornings

One of my favorite things I look forward to each week are quiet Saturday mornings.  The days when I can sleep in, fix a healthy breakfast, take some time to study the Word, workout, and then slowly begin preparing for the week ahead. 

Its just a slower pace from the weekday, and I love it.  I enjoy spending time planning and organizing, and always feel so much more relaxed after a quiet Saturday morning.

The afternoons are often filled with taking time to get a lot of the small things in order.  Things like  planning our meals for the next week, picking out my work outfits for the week, doing laundry, house cleaning, and just getting organized. Its just a nice day to chill and take care of my home, my hubby, and myself. 

Yup, Saturdays are great days to slow down, unwind, and take care of a few personal things.

And, of course that leaves time for Sundays to just rest and spend time with good friends and family.

Have a blessed weekend friends!!  

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Saturday, March 22, 2014

I've got my happy back.........

Whew this week has flown by at mock speed.  I can't believe its Saturday already!  Ha!  Things are good.  Actually, things are really good.  As I drove home yesterday afternoon, I couldn't help but smile and enjoy the drive.  God is so good, isn't He!  It seems like every time I turn around He is giving me little encouragements and blessings.  Whether its an encouraging call from a friend or a sweet conversation a new co-worker, things are just good.

To highlight some of the "good" I thought I would share some of my favorite things from this week:

 Monday, I kicked off my first full week of work with a little St. Patrick's Day Celebration!  I had these cute cup cakes wrapped up and gave to my co-workers.  So fun, and they loved it.  :-)

I also came across this awesome mash-up of some of my FAVORITE Christian songs from last year.  Which, led me to start listening to the artist Anthem Lights, and now are a must-listen on my
"Workday" Playlist on Spotify!

Sleep - Ahhh......its good stuff!  And, I am happy to say that my sleep routine is returning after nearly a year of craziness.  Makes me sooo happy.

"Professional" Blogging I posted my first Blog this my new company this week, and loved the way it turned out.Click HERE to read! 

Catvertising - If you haven't seen this, you will love it.  Especially, if you are in the Advertising or Marketing world.  Its too funny!! 

Hope you enjoyed the highlights of the week.  Things are going great, and I am so appreciative and thankful for all the goodness that is filling my life right now. 

Happy Saturday!

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Monday, March 17, 2014

Happy St. Patrick's Day!!


Hello! Hello!  And, Happy St. Patrick's Day!!

I love little holidays like St. Paddy's Day bc it gives us all a reason to celebrate and enjoy life a little more!  I thought a fun way to celebrate would be to share a few of my favorite cardigan looks for the holiday!  I have all these linked on my Pinterest Page to see more details. 

Don't you love these looks!  So classy, yet festive!  And, in case your not in the St. Patrick's Day spirit yet, enjoy my favorite "Irish Band" from Knoxville called Four Leaf Pete!  Always love hearing this band each year! 

Happy St. Paddy's Day!

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Friday, March 14, 2014

5 on Friday

Happy Happy Friday!!  I cannot believe how fast this incredible week has flown by.  To kick off the weekend, I'm linking up for Five on Friday with Christina, April, Darci, and Natasha for a fun 5 on Friday Post! Emjoy!

Suits! Suits! Suits! 

Last weekend, I accidentally downloaded (i.e. I purchased on accident) the first episode of Suits.  Its a USA Network show, that has been on for three seasons, but I just heard about it.  I decided that since I bought the episode I should go ahead and watch it, and I was immediately hooked.  I then watched then entire third season, and now have my DVR set to record it each week.  I just love finding new shows, especially non-reality shows. 

Life Changer......

This video has completely changed me, and reminded me that our lives are meant to help others who cannot help themselves. If you have seven minutes, its worth watching!!

Papa Murphy's Pizza



We Finally Tried It! And, loved it.  Definitely will be ordering this for dinner again soon.  So Delicious!


I decided to take a short break from my bi-weekly Mani and Pedi; however, this week returned to my favorite local nail salon for an afternoon of getting my nails and eyebrows back in shape.  Its the simple things that just make my day! 

Exciting News

Its official.  I have started my new job this week.  I am getting back to my love...PR, and working with an incredible PR Agency here in East Tennessee.  I am so excited with the opportunity, and looking forward to all that is ahead. 

Hope everyone had a great week, and here's to an awesome weekend!

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Thursday, March 13, 2014

IPhone Dump.........

I can honestly say that over the past month, life has truly been amazing.  I've truly taken time to get lots of rest, enjoy the quietness of life for once and get back to the basics.  

One of my sweet  friends gave me some wise advice back in February.  She encouraged me to take some time and hit the RESET button on my life, and get back to enjoying what was important to me. 

For someone who had been soooo devoted to just one area of my life, her advice came at the perfect time. So hence the blog break; however, I wanted to take a moment and share some of the fun memories that took place in January and February.  

Enjoy these sweet moments. 

I decorated for Valentine's Day this year!  
Its always hard after Christmas to go back to "normal decor," so I decided this year to add a few sweet touches to our home to help celebrate our love.  Cue Sappy Music

Here are a few last pics of my time with Visit Knoxville

1.  Attending the Tennessee Tourism Committee's Communication Sub-Committee Meeting in Nashville. What an incredible group of colleagues that I already miss greatly. 

2. and 3. Attending TACVB's Blizzard in Chattanooga.  Loved catching up with sweet friends during this conference. 

3. Finishing a Trade Show Booth for VK

Family Trip to Biltmore in January  
We had a blast with these two!!
Judging the 4-H Eastern Region Public Speaking Contest
Always one of my favorite events each year and always honored when they ask me to judge.

Oh the Olympics.  Always my favorite, and these pics just made my night. 

1. Couldn't have said it better. 
2. Now this is excitement.
3. Whoops - Poor 5th Ring
4. Here comes the 5th Ring....LOL.  (Yes, it still makes me laugh!!)

Best Facebook Post of the Night of the Opening Ceremonies!!  Ha!!!

 Snow, Snow, and More Snow!!
These are scenes from three (3) different snows and even capturing Matt walking to his car the day after he had to leave it down the street bc he couldn't get his car up the hill.
Also, the cat in the middle is the Davis Cat Buddy.  They are finally letting him inside after all these years.  LOL.  

 Spent an entire weekend watching Passion 2014!!
I love, love technolgy. 
 The best gift a gal could ask for from her sweet friend who goes to Disney.  
My sweet friend Laney brought me back two of these for me!  Now that's a friend!!

The Davis Boys!!
I love these three more than words can express.

I hate this pic is sooo blurry, but this is our sweet friends, The Parker Family, dedicating their sweet baby Eva Rose to the Lord at church.
I love the heart of this family and honored to celebrate with them.
This picture is blurry too, but this is our sweet friends Chris and Claudia receiving prayer at church bf Chris heads to the Middle East for a mission's trip.  Such a special day for our sweet friends!

Celebrating my Bro-In-Laws Birthday!!  
Too bad I didn't get any pics of him on that day.  LOL!!

 This saying summarizes my life over the past two months. 

Hope you enjoyed the pics!!  Exciting news coming tomorrow!!

Have a blessed Thursday!

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